The pilgrimage to Medugorie – the Oasis of Peace- has been my dream for many years. Also this time, as always before something that was to bring the best fruits, I experienced trouble mounting before me, trouble I couldn’t have overcome by myself. It is true, I wanted to give it all to God, but through anxiety, fear and apprehension I was clinging to really tightly, brought me down. It was only just in prayer I understood that God can solve only the problem I trust in Him completely. Such supernatural help I experienced, among other things, when I was looking for people to accompany me in my pilgrimage to Medugorie.

My long time friend, Pawel, who also wanted to go to Medugorie, lacked some king of spark, which would make a dream come true. My offer to join me was just this impulse that mutually mobilised us to the pilgrimage.

Then, Providence sent me Monika. I had hardly known her, but during the religious meeting religious in Czestochowa, I suggested that she should go with us and she agreed! What’s more, she mentioned about this trip to a friend of hers – Tomek, who also joined usJ. He proved to be very strong, so he was really helpful, inter alia, in carrying me. Then I didn’t suspect, that great Friendship would be born between us and I would owe him so much (see: ‘With Polish Army to Lourdes) (see: ‘With Polish Army to Lourdes)

I have no doubt that it is God, who sends me such people straight from Heaven, so that I could live more and more actively; so that I could always follow Jesus, and He did wander a lot.

I particularly feared the journey by coach, as I wouldn’t be able to travel all the way seated. Therefore, I appreciate so much the help of Gosia W – organizer of the pilgrimage and travel agency LUDWIG, which availed me 2 seats. So I could lie spread across the back seat.

Having got to the place, we lived in the district of Vionica. In the hotel it turned out that the door to most rooms were to narrow for the wheelchair to pass through. The owner, on second thought, offered us a suite! There we found not only wide door, but also wonderful conditions for all four of us:)

Those days in Medugorie took place a Youth Festival, accompanied by, among other, meetings with the Seeing, testimonies, concerts, shows. Also came a pilgrimage from Saint Anne’s Mount community I am on good terms with. I must admit that among about 20 friends I felt like at home there!

And in Medugorie itself I met many friendly people, just to mention Ivan, who gave me many great presents from his shop.

I also recall with affection sister Emmanuel from the Community of Blessing. She emanated with Peace and Goodness.

Trips to the Kravice waterfall and the seaside town Makarska were great attractions. I was impressed by the Adriatic Sea, surrounded with picturesque mountains. Is was an opportunity to praise God in the Beauty of nature.

A great challenge was Via Crucis to the mountain Krizevac, and I thought I wouldn’t make it. It was out of question that I could travel there on my wheelchair, as the road was full of rocks and stones. I tried to immerse in prayer deeply so that I could find in it our Father in Heaven’s will. When anxiety appeared in my heart, I knew it was His gift, though which He wanted to give me a chance to grow and develop; so that my live didn’t limit only to going in circles, but I could keep finding God in what He had prepared for me.

So I went there, hoping for some kind of miracle, although I was well aware that I could stay feet on the mountain. And then it turned out that there were stretchers and Providence sent a few men to help me. We began climbing at night, around 11 p.m. to be on the top at dawn, because at 3 a.m. a Mass started.

Then I experienced in particular that the whole Pilgrimage was, above all, a meeting with God and Mary – Queen of Peace (Kralica Mira). There, the rosary was truly a heart’s prayer; the mass – a union of Heaven and earth; the adoration of the Holy Sacrament – a fulfillment of His presence on Earth.

Unfortunately, I don’t always feel God as much as if I was embraced in His arms; quite opposite - sometimes He seems to be far, far away… I feel that our Father in Heaven acts similarly to a parent, who stays a little bit aside from a child learning to walk, so that the child can take his steps by himself. God helps but never does the job for us.

I don’t want to stand still, but keep going out on the ways of my life. It is only there where I can find the most precious treasures: happiness, good and beauty that have their source in love and friendship. They are the only treasures that don’t pass by, but remain in our hearts and will always make us richer… Because no matter the circumstances and even despite inert body, life really happens inside us… in our heart that in a Temple of prayer.

Therefore, every day in prayer I want to find what God wants me to do today. Without such practice we can work a lot, but do nothing good...

I have no doubt that any good can only come to being due to consolidation in Holy Spirit, otherwise I alone wouldn’t have managed many enterprises.

Then in prayer I can only give thanks...