Only when I stopped to be ashamed of my handicap I started to be open to the other people and to go out. Firstly it happened via my publications in magazines (list). I have received many letters from people who were able to see with their hearts. In such way stars of friendship started to shine in the darkness of my loneliness.

It is true that we live as much as we are for other people. However, only in the presence of Friend we can also exist in what is the deepest and at the same time the most sensitive inside us.
In fact we are similar to flowers that want to bloom in order to show their insides. Still to make it possible they need to be surrounded by light and warmth.
Perhaps this is the secret of happiness that we are both sun and flower who is able to bloom only in a warm glance, in a beaming smile, in a good word, in a friendly gesture, in a cordial touch of acceptance...

I thinkt that my life is beatiful because even in my weaknesses and limits I do feel Love and Power of God through other people and through miraculous events. I cannot only escape from something that tends to be out of my possibilities. Then I had to trust God and in the same way I am closer to Him and I experience His Love...

My first rehabilitation camp became such a breaking point in my life. It became possible due to Marta Bac who was the only person who answered my announcement on the radio. It was unusual that she even did not know me but she wanted to help me, to give her time and a piece of her heart.
These two weeks were so precious. I could enjoy the nature, meetings with people and developing of our friendship with Marta.

Next year Dorota Galowy made me happy with her sympathic and nice care. This unusual girl was very active and she wanted to convince me that my handicap did not have to deprive me happiness, friendship and active life in society. Such trip to a seaside was for us quite a new experience so there were many fears whether 19-years-old girl would be able to care for me? We were said to be crazy because we went for this camp..

Now I am happy that I gave up this normality that sentenced me for a prison in my own room. If we want to grow and develop we still need to cross next limits of our fears and weaknesses that exist mainly in our minds, imagination and complexes...

I passed many limits during various camps that were time of unusual adveture and enriching each other. I am still happy when I think how we gained mountain ways that can be conquered on wheel-chair only by crazy people.

After conquering one of such mountain way I heard words that should be considered by those who search for happiness and fulfillment in themselves but they find only emptiness.
It was like this:

"You know, Jacek, if I were here lonely it would not be unusual. But now my satisfaction and joy are greater because I helped you, because I made you happy seeing this beautiful place".

I am sure that the capacity of human beeing to make so much good things as people who help me do has its source in God. These people are kinds of windows through which God`s Love shine into the world and gives life, makes everything grow and mature. I think that every human beeing is vocated to be such a window and maybe that means to be holy but if a window is shut or dirty - then it does not let light to shine and then everything around this window is in the darkness. But I can see in some people such unsusal will to be open and clear that they shine with bright light from here to Heaven.

I feel that these people are miraculous Angels that God sends to the earth to make this world better and more beautiful. Due to their presence in my life I know what does it mean to be happy. We should be aware that life is inside us, it is inside our hearts. Life has its source in love and I believe that good things that I experience are just Love.